what next?

[sigh]
contemplating
as i look at my list

the never-ending to do list
that i avoid to do

list of tasks,
of goals,
of resolutions.

organized
in priority order
by longest standing date

memorized to the d
details so clear
they sometimes blur
with insignificance

a list that
that screams for me to
check off its boxes
boxes attached to tasks
tasks that hang on
for days
for weeks

dragging an illusion
to complete satisfaction

wish i could
shred it
yes, shred it to

p
i
e
c
e
s

[sigh]

then, restart
with one thing to do:

1) live.