june 24th

when this presentation and class that i've been intensely working on will end.

when my summer will finally start.
when i'll be able to focus more on my house,
my yard, my sleep,
my nainai.

when i'll be able to start enjoying life
a little more.

yeepie.

a little distressed

been thinking about control.

how much control
or little control
i have on my life,
or the next curve
that takes me for a spin.

control
the urge to keep it
still in my hands

ymt

talked with ymt the other day.

nothing like family love & support.
the unexpected gifts that life brings.
the miracles that enter our lives
to shift the way we carry ourselves,
listen to ourselves and each other,
love one another, realize the hole that
would be without each other, the
beauty that is the core of our love,
of our lives, and our dreams/hopes.

believe.
trust.
life will teach all there is to learn.

love you sis.

life at light speed

living life at the speed of light.

that's what it feels like.
a constant rush of excitement,
chased by squeaking urgent anxiety.

Not the greatest combination.

what i ask for is aligning in my path..
and i know it'd be foolish to ignore.

so help me. remind me.

to breathe, to be grateful.
to live all i can
before life ends on its own terms.